Beating Hearts

Calm yourself sweetheart. Your beating heart has nowhere else to go.
His wicked desires can harm you no more. His vicious smile is but a memory.
Pick up the pen. Write down your dreams. Live them. Breath them. Feel them.
He cant ever touch you again. Your eyes will no longer contain the terror that once was.
Breath in. Breath out.
Dawn is nigh. Watch your step. 

LISTEN..

i don’t want to be bought things

i don’t want to be taken to romantic places

i don’t want to be treated with money or materialistic things..

All i want is to sit at home with you, cuddle, and play some Black Ops.

I Write For ME, Not For You

Please don’t tell me how to write poetry.

Since when does it have a “standard length”?

What is “standard” anyway?

Maybe it should roll off the tongue

Streaming light words with heavy meanings

Because “every word holds weight”

And the spaces in between are more than just spaces

But pictures drawn to draw you in

But I tell you;

I like to keep it short.

No

 direction.

Placing

words

face down.

bare and simple

keeping-pointless-jargon-to-a-mi(a)nimal

because I write for me

not for you

to patch with written words

the 

h        ole      s

that spoken words leave behind.

Alright. To tell you about my day I will start off my saying Im on a million medications so I hope this is coherent.
First of all I left school at 9:30 bc I have a stomach virus so all I did alllllll day was play video games. Black ops, starcraft 2 and sims. Those are by far my favorite games.
And I was thinking about why I like those games so much and I came to the conclusion that it’s because I am in control. In control of what the people do. I’m scared of being out of control. I don’t like it. So it just makes sense. The moment I loose control of any situation I become infuriated. I know it’s bad but I can’t help it. Nor do I want to.
Well school is fast this week and hope I’m back tomorrowwwwwwwwwww

CHRISTMAS BREAK

So Christmas Break is underway and i literally cant wait. its been very hard to get through this past week as it has dawdled on by. i mean come on. couldnt you have gone by a tad faster, week?
Over the Christmas Holidays I will be working all day everyday up to the 23^rd of December. That’s my last day so it’s going to be fun. Anthony, Jose and Matthew (my supervisors) agreed to have a pizza party so it’s going to be great. They also started a “Casey’s Christmas Present Fund” so I can’t wait to see what it’s for. im going to miss my fellow employees. They have become my family. i can go to them with just about anything. I will miss them desperatly. its definetly a bittersweet farewell. :/  
After the 23^rd I’ll have all the time in the world which will be so weird because I haven’t had a day like that in forever. Nevertheless, I am very excited. I’ll probably do my last minute Christmas shopping then. So will the rest of the world, so i will prepare myself for chaos. Ive already gotten my mom’s present which she is going to love. And i know what i want to get my brother and Dad. i just have to find time to do this. Anyways. i asked for a bunch of things. i started off by asking for a couple things but then i kept seeing all these things i wanted so now i have a 9 item list. ridiculous i know.
Then on the 28^th I’m leaving at 2a.m to go to New Mexico. It’s a 12 hour drive apparently. I don’t know how well that will work out. I’m not the best at sitting still in a small space for an extended period of time. Actually, even for 20 minutes it’s hard. I will probablu just text the whole time and listen to music and watch movies. Those three things will keep me content for DAYS! Once I get there it will be so fun though. Maybe. I’ve never been to snow so hopefully I like it. I bet ill get sick of it after a day or so but oh well! :)

Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.

                       --BUDDHA