Saturday, December 18, 2010

CHRISTMAS BREAK

So Christmas Break is underway and i literally cant wait. its been very hard to get through this past week as it has dawdled on by. i mean come on. couldnt you have gone by a tad faster, week?
Over the Christmas Holidays I will be working all day everyday up to the 23rd of December. That’s my last day so it’s going to be fun. Anthony, Jose and Matthew (my supervisors) agreed to have a pizza party so it’s going to be great. They also started a “Casey’s Christmas Present Fund” so I can’t wait to see what it’s for. im going to miss my fellow employees. They have become my family. i can go to them with just about anything. I will miss them desperatly. its definetly a bittersweet farewell. :/  
After the 23rd I’ll have all the time in the world which will be so weird because I haven’t had a day like that in forever. Nevertheless, I am very excited. I’ll probably do my last minute Christmas shopping then. So will the rest of the world, so i will prepare myself for chaos. Ive already gotten my mom’s present which she is going to love. And i know what i want to get my brother and Dad. i just have to find time to do this. Anyways. i asked for a bunch of things. i started off by asking for a couple things but then i kept seeing all these things i wanted so now i have a 9 item list. ridiculous i know.
Then on the 28th I’m leaving at 2a.m to go to New Mexico. It’s a 12 hour drive apparently. I don’t know how well that will work out. I’m not the best at sitting still in a small space for an extended period of time. Actually, even for 20 minutes it’s hard. I will probablu just text the whole time and listen to music and watch movies. Those three things will keep me content for DAYS! Once I get there it will be so fun though. Maybe. I’ve never been to snow so hopefully I like it. I bet ill get sick of it after a day or so but oh well! :)

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.
                       --BUDDHA

Sunday, November 28, 2010

OH School And The Idiots Who Attend It

So I’m just sitting in physics. My brain all gooey from the insane test I just took. Ahh I think did good though. Hopefully. But normally when I think I did good I end of failing with like a 37 or something pathetic like that.
I just realized that i have a test in every class today. That’s why this day sucks. But at least I have a monster.
I left my earphones in my car. Poo. I miss them. They usually never leave my ears during school.
This girl! I swear! I’m going to get rid of her if she doesn’t stfu! She’s one of those people who know they are really smart and flaunt it. Ugh. I’m smart too. But you don’t see me going around bragging about my grades. Dumba**.
I’m trying not to cuss as much. It’s working. Sorta.
Oops. The bell just rang. Time for my history test. I know I’ll fail this one.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Religious Controversy

First: god gave us free will which means he cannot interfere with our lives. So where do miracles come from?
Second: he created everything as they are, thus they did not evolve into what they are? (that’s sort of like a baby born into the world then seeing all the technology and thinking cars have always existed in their current form, then witnessing as technology improves and cars are modified and not noticing the trend that things start primal and then improve = Evolution). Oh then we have plants being created before the sun, implying the earth existed before the sun. Genesis implies that we do not have a solar system.
Third: In genesis it talks about how if you eat from the tree that you will surely die THAT DAY. Then it goes on to say that Adam ate from it and died 930 years later. Its weird how that works out.
Fourth: if Adam and eve were the only people then how did all the different races come about?
Fifth:. The creation thing is all messed up. 1. Heaven and Earth 2. Light (night and day) 3. Sky 4. Plants 5. Sun, moon, and stars 6. Fish and birds 7. Land animals 8. Man and woman at the same time. Okay. From what I understand plants Need sunlight to live. So that can’t be right. Granted, the universe was created in 7 days so a plant can survive a day without sunlight. But it’s still wrong
I am aware that the bible was written by approximately 40 different people. Nevertheless, each author contradicts theirselves.
Ps: I am not atheist. There really was not a greater reason for me to to write this other than the fact I was bored.

Friday, November 5, 2010

BABBLE TIME

sometimes I wonder what’s wrong with people. As in what are their problems. Or if they even have any. It seems as if everyone I know is trying to put up a front of being this perfect person. I don’t really comprehend why. It doesn’t make sense. Why are they so caught up in being what everyone wants them to be or what they think they SHOULD be.
 In my opinion, the reason for people doing this is because our world if full of so many close minded people. its actually ridiculous. for example, people who claim to be these big Christians always say that gay people go to hell. that’s not true. in church they teach you that god loves everyone so why wouldn’t he like gay people. Christianity is a bunch of made up rules that people are told to follow. but of you look into it (like i did) half these rules aren’t stated anywhere in the new testament.
okay sorry about my little detour. but anyways. people just want to fit in and be accepted. Classic. but do you really want to be accepted by all these fake and small minded people? i don’t. i want that will listen to me. That will be there when i cry. That will answer my 3 in the morning phone call just to make me happy. Friends that will be there til the end. that will accept me however i am. That don’t care about physical appearance. those people are hard to come by, but once you find a friend like that don’t let them go. its the only thing that will keep you sane in this insane world we are forced to live in.
 Well that is all I have for now. Bye

Sunday, October 24, 2010

WantingToBeRemembered

How can you be happy without me? That’s what I’d like to know, after all those times you said that I was your everything. How can you walk away from the wreck that was us unscarred while I’m still lying in the twisted frame of what we used to be?
Were you lying to me when you showered me with your affections? Or could it be that I was simply too much of a dreamer. I wanted a perfect love so badly that maybe I imagined it. Maybe we weren’t so great, and you weren’t so good to me, and I wasn’t oh so happy.
But the pain is real. That’s the thing about pain; it can’t be imagined. There is no such thing as fake pain. Pain is such a personal thing, and I think that it feels different for each of us. That’s why no one can truly understand how we feel.
I miss your arms wrapped around my waist, and how sweet your breath felt against my skin. Your kisses like honeydew on my lips, and your body as warm and comforting as a smoldering fire.
But those memories are nothing but cobwebs now, and all I’m left with are the words you said when you left.
“There’s more to me than us.”

Thursday, October 21, 2010

PointOfNoReturn

Life has the uncanny ability of making you feel you made the wrong decision. All of the sudden, temptations of incredible proportions rise; new details you’ve been trying to avoid appear out of nowhere and confront you head on. You do your best to overlook a nuance, to identify a feature that could daunt you from returning and to escape the things that remind you of why you’re now in this new point. But it seems like a trickery, a hapless attempt. The farther you are, the greater the distance spanned, the stronger the pillars should be.  Or else all that weight in the middle, between the point of saying no and the point of opening a new door, will collapse.